Mother



"Blessed is your face

Blessed is your name

My beloved

Blessed is your smile
Which makes my soul want to fly
My beloved
All the nights
And all the times
That you cared for me
But i never realised it"



sumhow i missed my parent which are now in the States..Forgive me "mama" and "papa" if anything ive done is not accordingly to your teachings , your guidance. Im trying my best to be the son uve always wanted me to be..please forgive me of all my sins to u guys and i will try not to break your heart again..I promise that ill love u like u always loved me..and ill sure dedicate my whole life to take care for u all LOVE U 2 SO MUCH





IF..


This evening i jus past out without any warning..dang..dunno y..my brother's not at home and i jus blank and went to the ground..sigh lucky me coz im in my own room..


Boys Dont Cry





Wew...

Usually in this life we often see girls cry if they are depressed , sad or happy but still if u guys see a male homo sapiens is crying, then there must be a reason coz boys dont just cry without any reason..so think back if u see
a male version of homo sapiens crying sumwhere..its not about ego or wanna control their macho-ness but they only cry only if there's a good reason..

and if there's any male version of this kind who said they doesnt cry or cant cry then maybe u should consider to ask ur frenz to go for a check.


Left Out


Sumtimes i feel like im being left out..sigh..

i dont mind being left out coz i like to be alone rather than being with other people in this world..but sumhow if "she" did it..my worlds become's this giant empty space and makes me suffocate..n i cant stand even one moment if she is hectic with her work..
haizzzzzz....


jemmm sudaaaa

Captive Mind

Just wanna share my thoughts since i cant really sleep and im still waiting for my lovely princess to call..





Have u guys ever thought that we are still are in state of "captive mind" even the colonialism is over??How many of us realized or aware that we are still in colonized subtlety??? Yes do think about it again..
even we are free and even our country has been independent for 54 years but we still live in fear and under this state of "colonialism".We are bind , born to be captivated in our early lives.

Let me give u guys a simple example of how we are still under it and im sorry if its not u..but mostly our Malaysian people are.

e.g 1

"ko minat team bola mne yer?"
"mestila team arsenal" (arsenal people dont get mad - im just giving example)

Did we ever to like our own team??or our state team?? if some of u said yes..its just because the Malaysian team are now more shinning than they used to be..so its okay i guess but still we flare-up other team rather than our own team.

e.g 2

A guy walks in to our place and wearing a bundled clothes..than what do we say about him/her???

"ape barang pakai barang bundle..orang skarang pkai levis ori" 

yes despite that WE Malaysian are becoming a high living entity but still y cant we flare-up our own brand?our own design?our own national pride??it is a fear of becoming left out if ure not following the "waves".

eheheh..just wanna share my thoughts tho..if u dont like it do correct me..ive been thinking this for years and like the late sociologist, Syed Hussein Alatas pointed out how dangerous the CAPTIVE MIND is as it  plagues the developing world. ( actually i just found out that Allahyarham Syed Hussein Alatas wrote this).

think about it..

" A CAPTIVE MIND IS UNCREATIVE AND INCAPABLE OF RAISING ORIGINALS PROBLEM "
                                                                                                           - Allahyarham Syed Hussein Alatas








My Princess

this song is for u..ull know wenever ill post this up dat means dat i really miss u..
mwuah love u..

i know this is not ur type of songs to be romantic and stuff..but the lyrics really mean alot to me..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c4O17AQpQKA

Daily Routine.


Jus wanna share my daily routine throughout the day..

6 am : wake up and settle all my prayers..
7 am : send my brother to his school..
8 am : will be washing the dishes (if theres any) or housework
9 am : sitting in front my lappy and doing some work..
10 am : NAP..
1 pm : pickup my lil bro from school
2 pm : cook sumthing for him or buy for lunch
3 pm : sitting in front of my lappy again
4 pm : leave early for class (lepakking at mamak for a drink)
5 pm : class till 10

11 pm : chat with my parents
12 pm maybe a lil chat with my LOVE

1 - 6 am : sleep (but still i dont have any specific time SIGH)